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posted by [personal profile] calanor at 06:31am on 07/05/2011 under , , ,
Hello everyone...

well this past month.... year... two years.. has been a very long journey...

My mother has Alzheimer's.. and I've been her caregiver for the past four years.. last month.. She fell and broke her left hip.. The surgery was a turning point in her mental status... I can't keep her at home any longer.. The cost was beginning to become to much.. as well as the emotional toll on me... has been tremendous.

The week she fell.. I felt that I had failed her.. in not keeping her safe... but I know I'm not superwoman. That her disease was just progressing faster than I could keep up.. That she was slowly loosing sight of the world around her and slipping in her own world alone with her past and memories of those who have passed on.

Monday.. I go and pick her from a behavioral unit that specializes in Alzheimer's and Dementia, and then placement in a Nursing Home.. the one I work at. Her complete care is no longer mine alone...

Alzheimer's is an evil disease. Having them look at you and not realize who you are is the most painful thing I have endured.

My heart hurts.

My soul hurts.

Those looking for an update.. well.. not for awhile.. when I get back into the swing of things... I'll begin by finishing one story at a time.. and continue from there.. but until then..

Remember your Mother on Mother's day... and never let a day go by without telling her you love her..
Mood:: 'depressed' depressed
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posted by [personal profile] psyfic at 07:23am on 13/06/2011
*hugs* I went through that with my grandmother. Not Alzheimer's but some form of dementia with the same sort of symptoms/prognosis, so in the end, the same outcome. It's so damn hard and while I'm saddened to hear of your struggle, I'm glad to hear your physical carer burden will no longer be yours alone. You know it, you've heard it, but that doesn't make it less true that you can't help someone else if you need help yourself and with this disease, really, the more help, the better.

I had actually dropped by to wish you a belated Happy Birthday, and I do, but I also send you wishes for a more peaceful and less stressful year to come. *more hugs*

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