Rants, Musing, and Insanity

Hello everyone...

well this past month.... year... two years.. has been a very long journey...

My mother has Alzheimer's.. and I've been her caregiver for the past four years.. last month.. She fell and broke her left hip.. The surgery was a turning point in her mental status... I can't keep her at home any longer.. The cost was beginning to become to much.. as well as the emotional toll on me... has been tremendous.

The week she fell.. I felt that I had failed her.. in not keeping her safe... but I know I'm not superwoman. That her disease was just progressing faster than I could keep up.. That she was slowly loosing sight of the world around her and slipping in her own world alone with her past and memories of those who have passed on.

Monday.. I go and pick her from a behavioral unit that specializes in Alzheimer's and Dementia, and then placement in a Nursing Home.. the one I work at. Her complete care is no longer mine alone...

Alzheimer's is an evil disease. Having them look at you and not realize who you are is the most painful thing I have endured.

My heart hurts.

My soul hurts.

Those looking for an update.. well.. not for awhile.. when I get back into the swing of things... I'll begin by finishing one story at a time.. and continue from there.. but until then..

Remember your Mother on Mother's day... and never let a day go by without telling her you love her..

Title:: It's In His Kiss
Author:: calanor
Word Count:: 1781
Rating:: PG...
Warnings:: Hanky warning.....
Characters:: Harry Potter/Severus Snape
Summary:: It started with a kiss.... and ended with one.. this is my story of the Love that Severus and Harry shared... step by step.. Kiss by kiss..
A/N:: Accio.. how do I love thee? Should I count the ways? For the never ending patience that you have... to the love you have for the union of Severus and Harry... I give you this.. Enjoy..
morganlefay1958 tweaked.. alisanne for the prompt Kiss... and magic_helmet for the demand I post this post haste!!

( It's In His Kiss )

there was a list of kinks.. .every last one of them... somethings I hadn't ever heard of..

any help?

Title: Severus' Pleasure
Author:Calanor
Giftee: bielol
Word Count: 11,772
Rating: NC-17
Pairing:Harry/Severus, implied Lucius/Remus
Warnings: Post-Hogwarts, EWE, no book 6 or 7, slash, AU, smut...of the Severus/Harry kind.
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.
Summary: Harry is taken captive. Who will come to his rescue...
Author's Notes: thanks to N.. for listening to me go silently crazy and beta.. and S, F, S, 7 and S.. for reading. For the mods for having patience with me.. Happy Christmas! Blessed Yule! And of course.. Merry Christmas! I hope this meets with your approval bielol!


( Severus' Pleasure )

Never thought I would read this.. but I did.. and it's really cute and short..  Never gonna be able to watch Happy Days again without thinking of these two together.. *smirk*



Title: Dancing In The Dark
Category: Happy Days
Words: 1,022
Genre(s): Romance/Drama
Rating: Rated: M
Summary: Richie waits for what seems like forever for Fonz at the school
dance, but when Fonzie does arrive, nothing else matters as the world slips
away and they come together in the dark. Slash.

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5180027/1/

Tittle:: Sweetest Sin
Author:: calanor
Words::527
Warning:: HOT SEX.. not safe for Torina.. NC-17
Summary:: Harry and Severus equals.. HOT SEX.. need I say more?
Disclaimer:: Sadly not mine.. but damn.. they are hot! Wanna a Lemondrop?
A/N:: Thanks to morganlefay1958 helping me get it right.. Written for Severus *sighs* yahoo Group..




( HOT sex under the cut.. seek and you shall read..  )