Rants, Musing, and Insanity

Update on Real lIfe

Sat, 07 May 2011 11:32:06 GMT

Hello everyone...

well this past month.... year... two years.. has been a very long journey...

My mother has Alzheimer's.. and I've been her caregiver for the past four years.. last month.. She fell and broke her left hip.. The surgery was a turning point in her mental status... I can't keep her at home any longer.. The cost was beginning to become to much.. as well as the emotional toll on me... has been tremendous.

The week she fell.. I felt that I had failed her.. in not keeping her safe... but I know I'm not superwoman. That her disease was just progressing faster than I could keep up.. That she was slowly loosing sight of the world around her and slipping in her own world alone with her past and memories of those who have passed on.

Monday.. I go and pick her from a behavioral unit that specializes in Alzheimer's and Dementia, and then placement in a Nursing Home.. the one I work at. Her complete care is no longer mine alone...

Alzheimer's is an evil disease. Having them look at you and not realize who you are is the most painful thing I have endured.

My heart hurts.

My soul hurts.

Those looking for an update.. well.. not for awhile.. when I get back into the swing of things... I'll begin by finishing one story at a time.. and continue from there.. but until then..

Remember your Mother on Mother's day... and never let a day go by without telling her you love her..

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Fic:: It's In His Kiss, complete, HPSS

Wed, 03 Nov 2010 08:57:26 GMT

Title:: It's In His Kiss
Author:: calanor
Word Count:: 1781
Rating:: PG...
Warnings:: Hanky warning.....
Characters:: Harry Potter/Severus Snape
Summary:: It started with a kiss.... and ended with one.. this is my story of the Love that Severus and Harry shared... step by step.. Kiss by kiss..
A/N:: Accio.. how do I love thee? Should I count the ways? For the never ending patience that you have... to the love you have for the union of Severus and Harry... I give you this.. Enjoy..
morganlefay1958 tweaked.. alisanne for the prompt Kiss... and magic_helmet for the demand I post this post haste!!

( It's In His Kiss )

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I remember...

Tue, 07 Sep 2010 08:58:24 GMT

there was a list of kinks.. .every last one of them... somethings I hadn't ever heard of..

any help?

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Fic::Severus' Pleasure, Complete, Harry Potter

Fri, 29 Jan 2010 07:49:18 GMT

Title: Severus' Pleasure
Author:Calanor
Giftee: bielol
Word Count: 11,772
Rating: NC-17
Pairing:Harry/Severus, implied Lucius/Remus
Warnings: Post-Hogwarts, EWE, no book 6 or 7, slash, AU, smut...of the Severus/Harry kind.
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.
Summary: Harry is taken captive. Who will come to his rescue...
Author's Notes: thanks to N.. for listening to me go silently crazy and beta.. and S, F, S, 7 and S.. for reading. For the mods for having patience with me.. Happy Christmas! Blessed Yule! And of course.. Merry Christmas! I hope this meets with your approval bielol!

( Severus' Pleasure )

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feel the love.. at the Snarry friending meme...

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 06:28:18 GMT

art by accioslash and banner by swtalmnd

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Funny Slashy One Shot Fic Rec..

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 08:34:49 GMT

This is just too damn funny!!!

New story from Rice-Ball247
Title: My Son
Category: Harry Potter
Words: 1,282
Genre(s): Humor/Friendship
Rating: Rated: T
Summary: Lucius, Arthur, Remus and Sirius get together and have a discussion
about their sons. Sirius isn't too happy with what Harry's gone and done!
implied TL/HP, RW/HP, DM/HP, SS/HP - oneshot

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5221666/1/

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Another Rec.. A Crossover this time..

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 10:25:13 GMT

A Star Trek:OT/Harry Potter. I thought what the heck.. and I'm impressed. Very impressed.. And it's Het.. :D

Category: Harry Potter
Title: The Wizard on the Edge of Forever
Genre: Sci-Fi/General
Rating: Rated: T
Summary: During the fight at the Department of Mysteries, Harry gets taken on
the ride of his life.

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4944819/1/

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I'm not completely crazy.. but's Happy Days slash.. Richie/Fonzie..

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 00:24:46 GMT

Never thought I would read this.. but I did.. and it's really cute and short.. Never gonna be able to watch Happy Days again without thinking of these two together.. *smirk*

Title: Dancing In The Dark
Category: Happy Days
Words: 1,022
Genre(s): Romance/Drama
Rating: Rated: M
Summary: Richie waits for what seems like forever for Fonz at the school
dance, but when Fonzie does arrive, nothing else matters as the world slips
away and they come together in the dark. Slash.

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5180027/1/

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Gen Rec, WIP:: My Nephew Harry

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 05:06:58 GMT

Category: Harry Potter
Title: My Nephew Harry
Genre: General/Family
Rating: Rated: K+
Summary: During the two months she had watched her eight year-old nephews,
Marge Dursley discovered that Petunia was a pathological liar, Vernon had
somehow been brainwashed by that no good b***h, Dudley was the spawn of Satan,
and Harry was actually a good kid.

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5165369/1/

It's actually pretty good and I'm surprised. Marge IS NOT my favorite character. it's up to four chapters..

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Drabble:: Sweetest Sin, the drabble, complete

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 06:28:49 GMT

Tittle:: Sweetest Sin
Author:: calanor
Words::527
Warning:: HOT SEX.. not safe for Torina.. NC-17
Summary:: Harry and Severus equals.. HOT SEX.. need I say more?
Disclaimer:: Sadly not mine.. but damn.. they are hot! Wanna a Lemondrop?
A/N:: Thanks to morganlefay1958 helping me get it right.. Written for Severus *sighs* yahoo Group..

Sweetest Sin

( HOT sex under the cut.. seek and you shall read.. )

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In need of another set of eyes and brains..

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 09:26:15 GMT

Okay.. I have a 2500 word ficlet that I've been working on.. It's snarry to be.. with a Vampire!Harry. Extremely AU.. Dumbledore bashing..I know something is missing.. I just don't know what.. my coauthor Morganlefay has been helping.. but I think its missing something..

Help?

leave me your email...and I'll email it too you.. Give me your opinion.. and hints at what I'm missing. I would be grateful..

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Completed Snarrys.. Go and feel the love!

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 08:48:30 GMT

Category: Harry Potter

Title: Tears and Rain
Genre: Romance/Drama
Rating: Rated: M
Summary: Slash:: Harry's life is full of tears and rain. Will he ever have
happiness? Past HPDM, will be HPSS

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4165130/1/

Title: La Liberté de Breen à Vivre
Genre: Romance/Drama
Rating: Rated: M
Summary: La Liberté de Breen à Vivre Breen's Freedom to Live

Slash:: When your life has been controlled one day too long, what do you do? You find the
freedom to live your own life! HPSS, Mpreg, first page of story will have all the pairings listed.

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4096683/1/

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Rec.. Harry/Fawkes.. not what you think..

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 08:46:18 GMT

Category: Harry Potter
Title: Quoth the Phoenix
Genre: Romance/Drama
Rating: Rated: T
Summary: AU: Harry isn't the Boy Who Lived, because he lived. No – Harry
Potter was saved by someone unexpected. Secrets are revealed, pasts are
uncovered, and love awaits. Will that love bring joy or death? Happiness or
pain? Ravenclaw!Harry Fawkes/Harry :Slash:

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4955323/1/

complete and I love this story.. it's just wonderful and beautiful!

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Mon, 08 Jun 2009 10:46:50 GMT

Okay Bored and my muse has gone that way.. or the other way.. Probably on some beach.. LIKE Cancun.. or on a cruise Ship.. Damn little bint!

I have no direction.

Brawyn777 took down The Red to rewrite then she'll repost.. *sniff*

Kammeron asked for recs on Snarry fics.. Someone who writes Severus.. as himself.

I rec'd atypicalsnowman and thesewarmstars right off the bat!

Was gonna do Quill Lumos.. but someone posted her before did..

Yes I'm rambling.. What else is new?

I think I could cry a bucket of tears and it not change my mood..

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okay.. VOTE for the Snarry!!

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 07:31:37 GMT

community.livejournal.com/ship_manifesto/228120.html

Harry and Severus Cannot be beaten by Aragorn and Boromir.. OH NO!

now do the clicky on the linky thing.. and Vote SNARRY!!

and it's number 89 if you don't wanna go through all the other ships there.. from other fandoms..

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Happy Birthday Lilyseyes!!

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 08:53:23 GMT

Happy Birthday
lilyseyes

Your drabble is giving me fits.. so it might be a few hours late..

:D

Hope it was grand!

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How Rude..

Wed, 27 May 2009 09:28:21 GMT

Okay I'll admit I'll read just about anything if the summary catches my eye.. and I've read some really bad stuff.. but there is a story on ff.net.. its only five chapters in.. and the author just the other day threaten to pull it off the net cause she/he was getting enough reviews.. you know holding a story hostage until I get this and that..

I'm like well.. it's a good plot... the writing sucks.. but I'll get past that to read it.. but I'm not gonna review to just to make you write..

well she/he posted a chapter.. and I reviewed.. but I also said.. please do a read through.. there are a few misspelled words.. but this is a good storyline..

I got a snotty response.. an hour later..

I know I have told you before, so I am simply blocking you now. No stupid ass
grammar police welcome, read a novel if you want perfection.

well I checked..(I keep too many emails) and only have a reply back to when she/he was explaining to me her last story... question I brought up..

All I think of is.. HOW RUDE!

Don't wanna start a wank.. all new authors are not perfect.. but lord have mercy.. I keep thinking.. don't ask for reviews.. if you don't want the truth.. I mean we all learn.. and if went to perfect what we are doing..

Lord.. do the Snarry justice..

Yes.. I want to get a pitchfork out.. and just stab!

And when they post another chapter???

yeah I'll read.. but I'll not leave another review.. or even rec it.. hell Nee told me to write my own.. I should.. give the plot a twist of my own.. like I need another WIP..

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Question for the Brits on my friends list.. or is that Circle??

Sat, 23 May 2009 09:13:38 GMT

I've researched and googled till my fingers are blue..

In Great Britain, during WW2, did you have a draft? All I come up with is answers for the USA..

any help would be good.. just a yes or no would be good and what branches they drafted to?

Such as Medical personal..

Thanks

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Drabble for Mystkytten's Birthday!! Everything is Bigger in Texas, complete

Fri, 22 May 2009 14:07:50 GMT

Tittle:: Everything is Bigger in Texas

Author:: Calanor

For:: Mystkytten!!

Happy Birthday!!

Everything is Bigger in Texas

"Harry! What are you doing?" Severus came the front door of their home, standing in shock. Harry Potter was petting a dragon. A great big full grown dragon.

"Mystkytten is having a birthday. I thought she might like a dragon!"

Severus pinched the bridge of his nose. "And pray tell, where is she to house this dragon? She lives in Texas."

"Its Texas. Everything is bigger in Texas. She could tell her neighbors it's just a iguana. They'll believe her."

Rolling his dark eyes, "Harry. Iguanas don't breath fire."

Smiling, "This one does." Harry continued to pet the large green dragon. "Doesn't he remember what they did about the new Godzilla movie? They told everybody that he grew up from a Gila monster."

~finis~

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Drabble:: Catherine, complete

Fri, 22 May 2009 13:48:45 GMT

Tittle:: Catherine

Author:: Calanor

Words:: 529

Summary:: Severus says goodbye to a dear friend

A/N:: On Tuesday evening, one of my residents died. I wasn't there, but her family came to my house to tell me. They knew how close I was to this dear little lady and how I went out of my way to make sure she was comfortable and such. And it broke my heart. But I know she's in a better place. And she's at peace now. Her name was Catherine.. Writing this drabble is my way of dealing with my grief.. This is unbetaed...

Catherine

( Read more... )

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Fic Rec:: Because You're Mine by Ms Padfoot, complete

Fri, 22 May 2009 08:32:22 GMT

It's not snarry.. but Severus as Harry's father. The author has been working on this story for 7 years.. The story was even deleted from Fanfiction.net.. It is now completed at 76 chapters..

I love this story.. I was reading Severus as Harry's father before I read Snarry.. And it was here that I saw Severus *sighs* in a different light.. Even now I can't read him as a nasty evil person.. Unless.. Harry is being evil beside him..

Enjoy..

Because You're Mine by Ms. Padfoot,

Rating: Rated: M
Summary: Harry is rescued from the Dursley's by Severus Snape. What he tells
Harry leaves him stunned. Who is my father?...I am. Not all is as it was
believed to be. Who really is meant to be the 'Saviour of the Wizarding World?

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1688650/1/

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okay.. Now I'm Squeeing!!

Sun, 17 May 2009 07:30:24 GMT

Ya'all are squeeing about The new Star Trek movie.. well I just saw the trailer for Land of the Lost!!

Oh yeah.. OH YEAH!!

One my favorite shows growing up... when I should have been sleeping in on Saturday morning.. I was up in my pajamas... with a pillow and blanket on the couch.. watching Toons.. and Land of the Lost.. Scooby Doo, Bugs Bunny, Smurfs, and all the others.. that I can't think of..

:D

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In the Rain, WIP, parts 1-4

Wed, 13 May 2009 08:56:50 GMT

Tittle:: In the Rain
Author:: calanor
Disclaimer:: Jk Rowling owns the Harry Potter world, I just play in it from time to time. Lemon drop??
Summary:: Severus is alone after Harry's disappearance. His coping and where has he gone?
A/N:: I have idea where its going.. not sure how to get there.. just bare with me.. there is also art that goes with this done by Mystkytten..
it can be found here

( In the Rain )

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Girl!Harry Recs..

Tue, 12 May 2009 08:31:43 GMT

There are four Girl!Harry stories.. that I adore.. All Snarry.. I can't find the fifth one, where Harry is sent back in time, and becomes a Gypsy Girl... hmmm

Two are Harry was born a girl, but hidden to protect him.

Three are Harry being turned into a girl because of a spell..

One is a series written by esined0319

The Mathias Prophecy Series, there five parts to this series and I love them... (complete)

In this series, Harry was born a girl and he grew up knowing this...

http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1009426/esined0319

The Call of Destiny by Jessica LaRae (WIP)

But I think this is well done.. so far and has kept me waiting for more..

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4596344/1/

and the Insane Journal Page,

http://callofdestiny.insanejournal.com/

The next is Harry was boy.. but was turned into a girl... Snarry is the pairing..

Remembrance and Reunion (complete) can only be found here now on iulia's journal..

http://iulia-linnea.insanejournal.com/264019.html

You'll have to click on this link.. :: http://iulia-linnea.insanejournal.com/tag/remembrance+and+reunion

this next one is written by my best friend Morganlefay1958

Hana Rose's Diner.. (WIP)
Post-War, Harry is barely 18, AU, Life after V is gone is nothing like anyone expected--least of all Harry.

http://hp.adultfanfiction.net/story.php?no=600015643

Found this one.. finally.. had the wrong author..

Blood Gifted » reviews
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2160392/1/Blood_Gifted
Harry and Sev will do anything to be together, even defy the Dark Lord. A scheme boosts Severus in the ranks of the DEs and allows the two to continue their relationship beneath the scrutiny of the Wizarding World. Includes gypsies, bards, slash, HPSS.

Kim
~yes this is one my kinks.. the only way I'll read het anymore...

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Mini Ficlet for Lilyseyes:: One Moment, complete

Sat, 09 May 2009 09:12:25 GMT

Tittle:: One Moment
Author:: calanor
Pairing:: Harry/Severus, OC/OC, mentions of Bill/Neville
Words:: 892
Disclaimer:: Jk owns it all, I just play in it from time to time. Someone owns 'Music of the Night'.
Summary:: Severus' baby is getting married
A/N:: For lilyseyes, Congratulations on your daughter's graduation and wedding.. I used a half a box of puffs on this.. so enjoy! morganlefay1958 helped betaed and tweaked as I went...

One Moment

( One moment... )

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